I'm going home in two days time for CNY. :) It's gonna be a hectic and short one but I'm thankful for being able to see my family and friends again. I really miss home although I'm not homesick.
I'm feeling kinda confused.. :/ I hate being put in situations which require me to do do-or-die stuff. The feeling of being indirectly threatened isn't fun at all. Well, maybe it wasn't a threat, maybe it was just me. It makes things even worse if it interferes with my priorities.
I've always been a person with strong priorities back at home. Coming here made all of my priorities seem so shaky. Nevertheless, I'm going to be firm and steady! But.. the guilt (although I didn't do anything wrong).. the negative aura.. somehow, it just kills me. Why do I seem to care so much about what they think about me? I guess, it's human nature, no? I'm slowly learning to say "NO" without feeling guilty.
I hate it when it lingers in my mind because I'll be distracted and I end up not getting things done. :/
I hate feeling unnecessary stress. Must keep reminding myself why am I here in the first place.
Anyway, sad thoughts aside. Time for some jolly stuff. :)
Come to think about it, nothing jolly happened this week. :/ I fell sick! Thank God, there's no fever. I hate feeling feverish, it just makes me wanna lie on bed the whole day and that's just too time-consuming for now. I went out last weekend despite me feeling rather unwell and although I didn't buy much.
The clock is ticking.



























