Monday, February 22, 2010

This is for you, Sky.

Looking at her lying down on her bed weakly, stationary, with various sizes of tubes connected to her arms and nose, I couldn't help but feel pity and sad for her.

As she requested for my hand to grasp, I couldn't help but cry.

I didn't think I would cry, she didn't even cry! But, I guess that's just my nature. I am very weak and sensitive when it comes to these kinda incidents. She's a very strong and brave girl and I don't think I'll ever muster enough courage to withstand all these if they were to happen to me *touch wood*.

She has been hospitalized for four days now. I guess her condition is getting better. At least she could still talk to us although she feels lethargic. Her parents finally arrived after much delay. Listening to her mom say what they had to go through just to get to Singapore to see their daughter made me feel like crying even more. That just shows how much sacrifice her parents are willing to take just to be by her side. I wasn't surprised, my parents would have done the same thing. I felt really touched. She's lucky to have such blessed parents.

She's relieved that her parents are here to accompany her. She went through all the surgeries and tests all by herself before this. I'm sure she must have felt a whole lot of fear but she hung on and persevered. She managed to push her fears aside even though she didn't know how the outcome would be. And for that, I'm very proud of her.

I just wish she will recover soon, I want to see her around hall again. Tomorrow is a very crucial day for her and I'm sure that most of us are anxious and worried at the same time. All we can do is to keep her in our prayers.

I have faith in her.

Stay strong, Sky.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

And so, I'm back, again.

After what seemed like a very brief period of holidays in KL, I'm back again in my room in the midst of NUS.

How do I feel? Hmm, neutral although I still feel a bit heavy-hearted. I didn't get to do so many things that I normally do when I'm back but at least I got to spent time with my family and friends. :) I didn't manage to see some of my friends though! Next holidays perhaps!

I abhor the whole routine of having to pack-unpack-clean and all that shit. It just drains so much of my energy especially unpacking after travelling back from my arrival destination. Oh well, but that's part and parcel of the life of an international student in NUS, no? Gotta give and take! Mom packed me a bag of snacks/food to stock up my junkie drawer! :D How nice! The reason why I never run out of junk food or snacks is because I keep stocking them up. BAD HABIT!

Yesterday, I went for my second dose of Hepatitis A and Hepatitis B jab at the doctor's. He penetrated the needle slightly into my left arm and the moment he pushed the syringe, I FELT DIZZY. At that instant, I thought to myself, "How could this be happening? I was never afraid of needles! I have never fainted because of needles!". I turned to my sister and told her that I was dizzy. My whole head was spinning around and it was like I was seeing stars. She was shocked and afraid because someone has to drive and obviously, that would not be her.

I immediately complained to the doctor and he was like "What?! Don't joke!" and in which I immediately replied "I'm serious!". He asked the nurse to prepare a cup of glucose drink for me. The cause of this turned out to be me going for an injection with an empty stomach. Heh, my bad. :P That shall never happen again!

But somehow, the whole incident fascinated me about how our body works. One push and boom, it goes straight to my brain. SO FAST! After downing the cup of glucose drink, I was alright in a matter of minutes. :) Thankfully, I told the doctor about my dizziness. :)

Mom got so worried because I'm very prone to these kinda symptoms - headache, dizzy, faint.

Glad I was okay! :D

Okie, anyway gotta go do some work now.

I HATE IE! I HATE IE! I HATE IE! :/ But no choice, gotta use this to watch webcasted lectures.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

RAWR!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! :)

and

Happy Valentine's Day!

I wonder if the combination of V-Day and CNY is a good thing or not, haha. :)

God bless the year of the tiger! :D Have a prosperous CNY everyone!

RAWRRRR!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Take Me Away

It's February!

I'm going home in two days time for CNY. :) It's gonna be a hectic and short one but I'm thankful for being able to see my family and friends again. I really miss home although I'm not homesick.

I'm feeling kinda confused.. :/ I hate being put in situations which require me to do do-or-die stuff. The feeling of being indirectly threatened isn't fun at all. Well, maybe it wasn't a threat, maybe it was just me. It makes things even worse if it interferes with my priorities.

I've always been a person with strong priorities back at home. Coming here made all of my priorities seem so shaky. Nevertheless, I'm going to be firm and steady! But.. the guilt (although I didn't do anything wrong).. the negative aura.. somehow, it just kills me. Why do I seem to care so much about what they think about me? I guess, it's human nature, no? I'm slowly learning to say "NO" without feeling guilty.

I hate it when it lingers in my mind because I'll be distracted and I end up not getting things done. :/

I hate feeling unnecessary stress. Must keep reminding myself why am I here in the first place.

Anyway, sad thoughts aside. Time for some jolly stuff. :)

Come to think about it, nothing jolly happened this week. :/ I fell sick! Thank God, there's no fever. I hate feeling feverish, it just makes me wanna lie on bed the whole day and that's just too time-consuming for now. I went out last weekend despite me feeling rather unwell and although I didn't buy much.

The clock is ticking.